Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Zerberts
Gavin and Ro like to give me zerberts...Gavin calls them raspberries and laughs hysterically and today Ro called them sherbets. Too cute.
Monday, January 21, 2013
Family
It's so interesting, this thing called family- for lack of a better term- the yin and yang of hen pecked versus complete "freedom" of my children. (That syntax was horrible...)
Wanting so badly for my children to embrace school and love learning, but finding they end up fancying entertainment...but here I am writing a blog post...?
Wanting my children to encourage and love each other and then end up pondering my own lack of gentleness and patience. Feel like I'm always correcting and fixing...never quite happy with them...
Wanting immediate and sweet obedience and then finding myself bucking the proddings of the Holy Spirit.
Wanting order and schedule but realizing some things have to give, and praying God can still bless in spite of the hazy outlook and circumstances. How can God possibly make this good when the ingredients are less than stellar? Maybe it's about Him making the good out of nothing. I guess if He can make the world out of nothing He can make good and lovely things out of insipidness.
Isaiah 66:1&2 "Thus saith The Lord, The heaven is my throne, and the earth is my footstool: where is the house that ye built unto me? And where is the place of my rest? For all those things have been, saith The Lord: but to this man will I look, *even to him that is poor and of contrite spirit, and trembleth at my word*."
God doesn't ask for me to be or create perfection. He asks me to be of a poor and contrite spirit, and to fear Him. Such shaking of logic Scripture does...
Wanting so badly for my children to embrace school and love learning, but finding they end up fancying entertainment...but here I am writing a blog post...?
Wanting my children to encourage and love each other and then end up pondering my own lack of gentleness and patience. Feel like I'm always correcting and fixing...never quite happy with them...
Wanting immediate and sweet obedience and then finding myself bucking the proddings of the Holy Spirit.
Wanting order and schedule but realizing some things have to give, and praying God can still bless in spite of the hazy outlook and circumstances. How can God possibly make this good when the ingredients are less than stellar? Maybe it's about Him making the good out of nothing. I guess if He can make the world out of nothing He can make good and lovely things out of insipidness.
Isaiah 66:1&2 "Thus saith The Lord, The heaven is my throne, and the earth is my footstool: where is the house that ye built unto me? And where is the place of my rest? For all those things have been, saith The Lord: but to this man will I look, *even to him that is poor and of contrite spirit, and trembleth at my word*."
God doesn't ask for me to be or create perfection. He asks me to be of a poor and contrite spirit, and to fear Him. Such shaking of logic Scripture does...
New Year
It was a goal last year to start the posts back up again and I regret not doing so. I miss out on so many opportunities to share my family's life. I wanted a new header with a creative font etc, but. Need to just do this. I often share things on Facebook because I have no where else to share- no journal, nothing.
Rowan will be six in two weeks. SIX!! Sigh. She's lost her baby ness and is a little girl. And I cry bc I miss her. I don't know if I took enough pics or enough video and I KNOW I didn't spend enough time with her and I just don't want to forget...(tears are pouring down my cheeks). She is such an amazing gift from God. He knew I needed a daughter. I will always love the moments we are in, but you never get the little time back again and it is just so precious.
Life in so many ways passes me by. I am working hard at getting myself to a place where it doesn't. I realize I am not good at participating- I enjoy delegating and planning and overseeing but I am not good for playing along side or with...and therefore I do miss out. I'm organizing and cleaning and decorating and giving my children opportunities and experiences, but not necessarily along side. They do a lot together-and are very independent creatures- but it's what we created. Just not sure it makes for a life with no regrets.
I am hoping for a year of excellence. I did start off with the word "gentle" as my theme word- ill have to do another post on that... By excellence I mean organized - in addition to controlled chaos. I changed our homeschooling pattern up a bit this year- it is going well but I can't say it is more enjoyable- again I feel that lack of opportunity to enjoy bc I'm always trying to just get to the next thing. I will have to recap the last year in another post as well- that will help clear my head for future posts.
Another point of chagrin is digital media. I SO LOVE hard copy that when I do not hold actual video tapes or pics in my hand I feel like I have nothing. I honestly have no idea what I do and don't have of Ro and I hate it bc I KNOW I have stuff of the boys bc I have tangible evidence. We got a new video recorder 2 years ago and have barely used it the past year bc of our iPhones and just lack of capitalizing on opportunities. Life. I hate regrets. Here's to writing a new post every night and thinking and sorting through goals and making 2013 a year of possibilities and wonder...(and printing out pictures and downloading video to an external hard drive)
Rowan will be six in two weeks. SIX!! Sigh. She's lost her baby ness and is a little girl. And I cry bc I miss her. I don't know if I took enough pics or enough video and I KNOW I didn't spend enough time with her and I just don't want to forget...(tears are pouring down my cheeks). She is such an amazing gift from God. He knew I needed a daughter. I will always love the moments we are in, but you never get the little time back again and it is just so precious.
Life in so many ways passes me by. I am working hard at getting myself to a place where it doesn't. I realize I am not good at participating- I enjoy delegating and planning and overseeing but I am not good for playing along side or with...and therefore I do miss out. I'm organizing and cleaning and decorating and giving my children opportunities and experiences, but not necessarily along side. They do a lot together-and are very independent creatures- but it's what we created. Just not sure it makes for a life with no regrets.
I am hoping for a year of excellence. I did start off with the word "gentle" as my theme word- ill have to do another post on that... By excellence I mean organized - in addition to controlled chaos. I changed our homeschooling pattern up a bit this year- it is going well but I can't say it is more enjoyable- again I feel that lack of opportunity to enjoy bc I'm always trying to just get to the next thing. I will have to recap the last year in another post as well- that will help clear my head for future posts.
Another point of chagrin is digital media. I SO LOVE hard copy that when I do not hold actual video tapes or pics in my hand I feel like I have nothing. I honestly have no idea what I do and don't have of Ro and I hate it bc I KNOW I have stuff of the boys bc I have tangible evidence. We got a new video recorder 2 years ago and have barely used it the past year bc of our iPhones and just lack of capitalizing on opportunities. Life. I hate regrets. Here's to writing a new post every night and thinking and sorting through goals and making 2013 a year of possibilities and wonder...(and printing out pictures and downloading video to an external hard drive)
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